New Years Eve

“Linger” The Cranberries If you, if you could return Don't let it burn Don't let it fade I'm sure I'm not being rude But it's just your attitude It's tearing me apart It's ruining every day For me I swore I would be true And fellow, so did you So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? But I'm in so deep You know I'm such a fool for you You've got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, do have to let it linger? Oh, I thought the world of you I thought nothing could go wrong But I was wrong, I was wrong If you, if you could get by Trying not to lie Things wouldn't be so confused And I wouldn't feel so used But you always really knew I just want to be with you And I'm … I think there was a time when we were both cashiers and standing at our registers waiting for customers, talking. I vaguely remembe...

I have been doing pretty well, looking at myself from the outside in. From the depression I was in, I am more able to keep myself from going into that "hole." Before I would feel it just slightly and I keep see myself slip if I let myself. And sometimes I would allow myself to. Sometimes it is ok to let go and cry to get it out of your system. But since I put in black and white of everything that happened, I have been doing better. They say time heals, and to be honest they are right. I think about my life and reflect all that has happened to me. Everyone on the outside, just sees me as a walking sad story. And as much as I can sit here and say I don't care what others think, its just not true. It has made me go into my shell even further. Bu thats fine. I will be what human nature craves, the drama. Ill be the walking sad story. There isn't a day that I would take it back. I don't regret much. Because in that moment in time, I wanted it. And without those dec...